The Good News and the Bad News....

Wow, we had some wonderful news this past Sunday. We received a new photo of our soon to be second son, we hope. We had not seen a updated photo of him since June 05. This is a really big deal for us as we received some other photos on Xmas Eve and in January, but of a different child. Now, we know that Kaz does not "hold" children, and we were ok with that fact because of all the wonderful things we have read/heard about the Nezabudka orphanage in Karaganda. Our main concern was if "our" boy was not to be ours, then by all means we hoped he would have gone to a good forever home. For me, I just needed closure. It was hard knowing that our son could be out there but for one reason or another his picture was misplaced. I'm ok with him going to a family that would love him as much as we do. We also knew we would not come home empty handed that there were plenty of boys in the 3-4yr age at Nezabudka. So, at first glance I was so elated to finally see "him" once again. Then I felt great sadness for the boy who's photo we received, actually many photos. He is adorable, but a bit older than we feel would make a good match with our current family. How awful that this boy had to have new photos of him and now he thinks a forever family is coming and in reality more than likely he will not get adopted for as we all know the older children get the less likely they'll be adopted, especially boys. I just sat down and wept for him.

More good news, we now are officially going to Kaz on the 31st of March from Newark-Frankfurt-Almaty. Well, that is if our visas come today. Hurray, they came, and now the bad news and only gets worse, they are incorrect. Acutally only mine. I was destraut, I called the NY Consulate and while they were understanding and told me to simply overnight it again and they'll do it same day and overnight it back to me. It really urked me that we now need to pay an additional $28.80 to do a task twice and in the back of our mind stress about the visa's arriving promptly.

The worst news of the day is that our son has been diagnosed with an illness that although treatable still scares us a bit and makes us feel helpless because as parents we feel we should be able to protect him and provide for him.. I cant even begin to explain the sick feeling I have in my stomach and heart at this moment. We also don't know if he's receiving anti-biotics at this time, if he'll be allowed entrance into the US. They say "yes, it won't be a problem." YEAH, sorry, I'd like something in writing please... Needless to say we have some very serious issues at hand. Please think good thoughts for us in this trying time.

Oh, to top it off. The AF is moving us to Colorado Springs this summer. That's wonderful, it will be a great place to raise the boys, but they want us there by June 30th. Ok, we'll be out of the country til 1stMay. We then have about 3 wks til I would return for a week or so. Let's just say worst case scenario, I don't arrive home til the first week-end in June. According to INS we need to bring our new son home to the address on our UCSIS paperwork. So if our house were to sell, we can't legal move out of it til the 2nd week of June. Which could turn away potential buyers or we could literally be home a few nights and then need to pack-up and hit the road. That's a lot for a stable secure family to handle let alone a newly comprised family who's jet-lagged and doesn't speak english, coming to a totally new environment and lifestyle. AAAH..

I figure it's so crazy, it has to all work out!! Keep your fingers crossed. It's been such a yucky day, I just had to post a photo of the one who can always brighten my day!!!

Nell :)